Spectacular 2017

Let's start the story of 2017 with this one.

I spent my last weekend attending an awesome event powered by Herbalife Nutrition.

SPECTACULAR 2017..!!

Ever since I was still back in Pahang, Spectacular 2017 had been one of the most awaited event. We had been planning for the 2 days trip since the last time we get back from LDW2016. It was indeed an eye opening event with a lots of inspiring people giving us advice and knowledge.

The world is huge, so those the sea of knowledge. never stop learning guys. During the event, we were listening to the nutritious talk given by Dr Luigi Gratton who is also medical doctor from USA. There is so many things too share that I think the given time is not enough for him to tell us everything that he want to ahaks!

We also had the chance to spent the two days with Cindy and Kurt O'Connel..!

I met up with hundreds of inspiring people who already change their life to the better and keep on spreading awareness on nutrition and healthy active lifestyle.

Team Pekan - Rumah Sarapan Sihat Pekan (East Coast Region)

Awesome coach she is! On the stage to receive the recognition as an Active World Team Member.
I'll surely joined you one fine day Ibu!

And to be able to spend time with this little pumpkin. She really become the center of attraction during the whole event..
Literally everyone was so geram with her trying to take her away from me. Sorry sis! She's all mine for the weekend... Miahahahahahhahahahahaa... 

SO..that's more or less everything about it. See you guys again on next event aite?

2016 -- Part 2

Before I fully moved myself into 2017, here's a last post on 2016. Looking back at 2016, seriously man, IDK how I even survived! Haha! The worst of 2016 have to be the moment when I entrust my heart, my life (for the first time of my entire life) to someone who didn't even worth it. And just watching how my trust crumble to the ground, it hurts me -- TWICE.

But hey, I came back stronger apa, and that can be considered as fair lah kan? Walaupun I doubt myself to ever put my trust in human being anymore (okay, exaggerate sangat, meh!) haha..

Okay enough of speaking about my stupidity. Let's move on to the brightest achievement -- losing weight. haha. (Okay, my Master is one of it, but considering that I was supposed to grad in 2015, so yeah, let it be the best moment of 2015).

Losing weight. All my life, memang saya gemok. Masuk sukan sekejap2 turun then balik makan, naik balik. Dulu I always blame the gene

"nothing could be done"

"it runs in the blood"

Well, 2016 had taught me something. SLOW METABOLISM MAY BE CAUSED BY THE GENE, BUT UNHEALTHY EATING HABIT IS NOT! LAZINESS TO GO OUT AND TAKE A WALK IS NOT!

Duh! that fact really hit me hard. Hence i start my weight loss journey. and guess what, under 5 months, i lose a good 15kg ! side effect of a healthy balanced lifestyle? hmmmm not much..

I just feeling healthier, my jeans were downsized 3 times smaller, i gained more energy, I managed to love myself more! hahahahaha

Guess I'll start sharing my weight loss journey punya story tak lama lagi.. Siapa nak ? ehe!
Okay, let's just wrapped 2016 up already. I'm done living in the past!

2016 -- Part 1

It's been a year since I last posted any entry. Life had been disastrous and 2016 had witnessed too many thing happen in my life.

From success story, to broken heart, 2016 surely had been overwhelming for me.

Lets skipped the long (read boring) part of the story. I'll just summarized everything into one post before I start 2017 with another wish of being active on my blog (every early of the year though) cait!

So, what happen in 2016?

1. I graduated from UiTM with my Master in Information Tecnology (Mummy is so proud of me!)

2. Broken heart (ah it happen all years though)

3. and by end of 2016, I kicked started my career path at SEGi College Subang as an Admin Officer. (they said to be able to get the lecturing position, one have to be equipped with massive industrial background) okay. got it.

That's all.

Looking forward to a more active-blogging in 2017. :P

Semua orang buat salah..

Kadang kadang hidup ni dengki dengan kita, kan?
Dia nampak kita dah kat depan, dia tarik kita pada dosa dan cerita lama.

Kadang sampai terpatah semangat yg tengah marak.

Siapa tak pernah buat salah, kan?
Tp kalau asyik nak terkenang, asyik nak teringat
Sampai bila nak sampai depan?

Tu, depan sana, hidup baru dah tunggu, kejar lah!

ICSCDS2015

While accomplishing my master journey, my supervisor had been encouraging me to produced some papers to be submitted to conferences and proceedings. One of it is ICSCDS2015. 

Read as International Conference on Soft Computing in Data Science 2015. 

It was my first ever experience preseting in an international conference! Sumpah cuak, ketor segala ada. Plus I had a very longggggg journey before I arrived to the venue. 

The conference were being held in Pullman Hotel, Putrajaya from 2nd to 3rd September and my parallel session falls on the 3rd. We spend the first day of conference attending keynote speech and makan all day long. (Except i missed the dinner due to some misunderstanding during the registration process) deng! 

My parallel session runs very smoothly despite of me not being in my best condition. (Too much transits and travellings make me sick!) and my work did received some attention from the floor. It was a splendid experience indeed. All thanks goes to my supervisor for the supports and encouragement. For helping me throughout. 

Till next time, see ya! 

Journaling.

Now thinking of restarting my physical journal hobby.
Gara-gara dengki tengok Kak Sha punya daily journal iyergh!

Post-ViVA (Part 2)

After a loooooooooooonnnnnggggggg break from the computer/laptop screen, here we go again.

and sadly after the loooooooooonggg break, I just realize the cracked on my laptop (believe to happen during the accident I had the night before my final oral presentation).

Nasib baik lah I'm done with all the corrections (and submitted my hardbound--jyeah!) Itu highlight untuk part two. Haks! Alhamdulillah everything went well, ViVA, correction, sampai lah second printing process for the hardbound. Semua dipermudahkan.

Now nervously patiently waiting for my final result before I can finally apply for any job application.

Nampak tak alasan dia nak honeymoon. Hoi! Pakai result last sem pun boleh apply kerja lah! banyak kau punya alasan!

...I'm also in the dilemma whether I shall straightly go for my doctorate. Hem.. Idea guys? T.T Having a hard time weighing all the options available. (Sigh! it's not as easy as how I come to decide on doing my master!)

Takpelah..Still got time for some more thinking and istikharah.

For the time being, masa-masa yang terluang harus la digunakan dengan bijak.

1. I'm spending my time reading books. Motivational, poetic and religious books mostly. Saje. Macam penat mengadap papers and journals, so why not, aite?

2. Revising primary school grammar (I'm having a super hard time while doing my thesis writing though, still wondering how I can score full marks during my degree thesis and my report passed without any grammatical error! *insert shocking face here* I didn't even have anyone to proofread that one, but my sv and examiner said it was among the best). Tp writing master punya thesis punya lah sampai oxford mintak tlg orang proofread *nangis*.

3. Belajar tajweed. Haha. Macam sekolah rendah tak? :P Kesah lah! Jujur yang penting. Bukan tak tau tapi mengingat kembali. Revising to get a better knowledge. Tak salah, kan? :P

4. Ini belum start, but I'm considering on restarting my artwork yg dah setahun setengah tak berasah. I guess my hand pun dah stiffed gilos. Haish!

Okay la, that's it for now. See ya!

Post-ViVA (Part 1)

Alhamdullilah.

Berjaya mengharung sesi pembentangan akhir (ViVA) untuk Master thesis ku. (Tak mampu nak cakap dengan jayanya, I did not perform well)

The night before ViVA I had an accident. Dek kerana kecuaian orang, aku yang tanggung akibatnyaa.. Maka ViVA dengan tahap semuanya separuh. Persediaan mental, physical (dan confirm hencut). Tapi highlight dia, I did it.

and my outcome berjaya jugak meng'wow'kan examiner dan beberapa pensyarah yang hadir. (Alhamdulillah, semua dengan izin DIA).

Takdelah teruk mana sebenarnya, okay je and the session pun macam santai-santai jep. (Sebab examiner semua pose kot?) Soalan pun tak banyak and kebanyakan yg datang dari examiner is the suggestion on how to made my work better (untuk hardbound later). Soalan yang diberi walaupun ada beberapa yang tak dijangka tapi jawapan yang aku bagi mengukir senyuman diwajah yang bertanya (so i guess dorang puas hati la dengan jawapan aku, kan?) ke syok sendiri? Hiks!

This semester memang quite a hectic and rushing semester for me. Even my second examiner (who also happen to be the coordinator for the Master Dissertation courses) cakap selalunya lepas ViVA student will be given a minimum of 2 weeks utk correction, tp in our cases -- SEMINGGU!

Memang tak terkangkang pun aku bersengkang buat correction ittewww..Mane dengan harapan nak cepat-cepat siap sebab nak balik raya lagi. Yelah...ViVA dah hari Khamis, Jumaat tu both examiner busy. Kalau tak dikejar haritu, mau aku masih belum dapat menyiapkan correction ku. But Alhamdulillah, correction siap, and examiner pun were being linear enough to allow me to submit everything through email. (Actually dah dapat respond dari first examiner regarding my correction and rasanya by tomorrow dah boleh kawtim..kekekeke..)

And yes, menghitung detik dan waktu untuk pulang ke pangkuan keluarga tercinta. Raya woi! Haha.
Walaupun jiwa masih dibelenggu dilema (this kita simpan sampai lepas raya, okay?) Raya tetap didahulukan.

Mama! Tunggu! Tak lama g kite balik!

Dulu, saya nak jadi doktor.

Yerp..dulu, saya nak jadi doktor. Bukan sebab the three most wanted job as a kid (police-doctor-lawyer) tapi sebab mmg aku NAK jadi doktor and all my close family know about this one dream of mine.

Sebab?

Pertama kali hati aku terdetik nak jadi doktor bila pertama kali aku tengok mama disorong keluar dari dewan bedah. Tak sedar. Masa tu aku baru darjah 5. Yerp. Mama sakit Kanser. Breast. But now she's all good and healthy, Praise to Allah! Alhamdulillah!

Itu, kali pertama aku nak jadi doktor. Then bila tengok mama muntah, lembik setiap kali balik chemo. Pertama kali berjauhan for one month bila mama terpaksa stay kat HKL for her radiotherapy and sambung her remaining chemo. Bila mama balik after that one month, botak, no hair. and we anak-anak take around few hours to get to know that it was her. there she was. Mama. It broke her heart that kami anak-anak tak kenal dia masa tu. Yerps,, those moment yang buat kan a 12-years-old fateen jadi tekad nak jadi doktor.

"nak invent chemo yang tak buat orang muntah"
"nak buat ubat yang tak buat orang botak"
"nak cari treatment yang mak-ayah tak yah tinggal anak-anak lama lama"

Then i start to study real hard. lepas mama, woh (my most beloved aunty) pulak masuk hospital. fibroid. and that minor surgeries almost took her life away sebab kecuaian pihak hospital. That was when I'm in form 3. Maka aku tambah lagi tekad "Aku kene belajar betul2 untuk PMR sebab nak masuk aliran sains" A first step nak capai cita2 nak jadi doktor. Magically, I got in.

Then masa form 5, papa collapse from a heart attack. I vividly remember that scene. Ema was sick and daddy was running here and there bawak dia pergi hospital and everything. And then bila semua dah setel, he came back, depan rumah, terduduk, cakap sakit dada. And the hospital-routine starts over again. CCU hospital Pekan, then the doctor said kene transfer sana sini. Sampai dapat appointment dekat IJN, and he get his treatment.

All things that happen buat aku makin yakin dan tekad nak amek aliran kedoktoran. I was accepted to Kolej Matrik Johor--Aliran Sains. dan cita cita makin jelas depan mata. I got to know this one lady, Ain. and yes we both aimed nak jadi doktor. But then again, indeed Allah is the best planner. Ain dapat sambung untuk medic dekat UPM but me tak dapat. I got an offer from Mensoura but mama cakap no and memang dari sekolah menengah lagi apa apa yang aku buat, aku ingatkan pada diri sendiri, kalau mama cakap tidak, means -- tidak. UPU result keluar and i got a place in UMS tp in Computer Science. Waaayy deviated from what I've been aiming for years. Tapi aku terima with the thought that "This what ALLAH had planned for me, maybe there is something better waiting for me ahead"

..and today, as I walked through the end of my Master journey, I'm proud to say that I'm now, an IT people. 'Doktor' komputer. and yes, macam mama selalu pesan, ALLAH tak bagi apa yang kita nak, sebab dia nak bg yang lebih baik pada masa akan datang. I see it now.

And untuk my bestfriend dearly , Ain Nabila Zaim, (currently a medical doctor in HSA), tahniah sebab awak sekarang dah capai cita-cita yang kita sama-sama idamkan dulu. Tahniah sebab sekarang awk dah jadi orang yang menyumbang kepada mereka yang memerlukan. Despite of having to share you with the public now, awak tetap private doctor kite sampai bila-bila. hehe. :)

Experience make you grow.

"Experience is the best teachers"

Well, saya setuju.

Master journey had taught me a lot. The experience I gained was invaluable. Tak ternilai harga nya.

Dari managing event, sampai tulis paperwork, sampai buat thesis.

Setiap satu langkah tu ada pengalaman tersendiri and YES, it give birth to a more mature me. (but still not mature enough to give up on things like cartoon, chocolates, candy and comics!)

But yes, it was a splendid experience. Rasa macam baru je sibuk2 register dekat DATC. Now I'm finishing my master (insyaALLAH).

ViVA coming in a few days. (Slide tak buat lagi..too occupied writing papers).

Selamat ulangtahun suku abad, fateen!

Wow. 25 tahun. 

I dedicated today to the one that had been carrying me for a good 9 months. 

For all your suffering, backaches, morning sickness, swollen leg along the way. 

To the one that had been enduring a massive amount of pain just to give me a life. 

To the one that had been rising me, taking care of me. 

For all the sleepless night everytime I fall sick. For all the day that i made you worried over my stubborness. For all the patience that you have while ensuring me to have the best of everything. 

And above all, for all the love and passion you have for me. 

I dedicated today, to the one that i've been calling mummy for my entire life. 

Without you mii, i may not even be here. 

Thank you for being and obses-mummy who love to worry over nothing. 

Thank you for everything that you had done for the past 25 years. You, are the best present that I could ever asked for. 

I love you with all my heart. 

#Ramadhan9

Sejak akhir-akhir ni sibuk duk pulun perabih writing thesis, my biological clock had been tuned to those of an owl. 

Lepas aja pukul 12 pagi, mata terbuntang tak bleh tidur, so alang alang selalunya terus tunggu sampai sahur. Lepas sahur, subuh, ngaji sampai pukul 7, then tido. Haha

Selalunya i'll be alarmed by my other housemate bising2 bangun masak utk sahur. Cerita harini: it was all silent and i'm way too focused to the laptop screen and the only sound i heard is suara azan subuh from the nearby masjid. *deng! Terlepas sahurku. Budak2 ni azam ramadan kah yg tak berkutik pun bunyi masak sahur?* that was my first thought. 

Last2 sekali tengok. Ghopenye sekor pun tak sedar dan seisi rumah itu telah terlepas sahur mereka. 

Pengajaran #ramadhan9: jangan terlaku berharap pada orang lain. Alert yourself and set jam walaupun berjaga. Sheshh! 

Balas dendam.

Banyak sebenarnya benda yg nak ditulis, nak dikongsi. Even aku tau sebenarnya blog ni non hado followers pun. Well, i write for fun. 

Menulis is one of the cheapest therapy for me. It give me pleasure and help to release my stress. 

Boleh tak nak post doplohh post sehari sebab balas dendam tak menulis setahun? Aci tak? Hiks!  

Motivation is medicine.

It's going to end soon and no doubt that the thought of quitting had been running through my mind for few times. 

Stress study, alone and away from family dgn a few family problem yg dtg bertimpa-timpa. My spirit seems to diminished, blown away from time to time. 

But then, setiap kali rasa nak jatuh, setiap kali rasa down. I seek for advices and opinions from others. Mostly my sv and my fellow lecturers. Well, they had been through the same journey before. Of course pengalaman dorg berkoyan koyan.

Well. Motivation is the best medicines. I even go to the extend to visit psychologist and counselor from other uni! Bunyik mcm propa kan. Tp betul. I did it. Friends and families were the strongest support system. No doubt. Tp jgn diminished the power of talking to strangers. 

For me they made the best listeners. They dont know you, or your family. To their eyes, you are just, well, you. They dont judge (most of them dont, some just love to judge you despite of knowing you for merely few months/weeks/days)

But yes, one thing that i come to learn through this journey is the powerful loge among strangers.. And some of them remain as a friend/ big sister for me until now. 

That's it for now. Gotta to move this lazy bum and finished my paper! 

More sharings in the future (since that i already download the blogger apps to my iphone. Hiks!) 

Till next time!

Love mucho. 

IIDEX2015

During my Master journey, I had been given a lots of chances (by my supervisor mostly) to participate and engage in many events and competitions..

IIDEX2015 is one of it. (To be noted: tumpang product orang aje) hiks!

But still, it was a splendid experience for me. On top of that, we won gold! 

Some of the pictures during the competition..

                                               

Orang kuat team. (Kipas lebih sikit). Project leader (on the left) and my supervisor on the right. 

 First judge! And it was Dr Kamarulariffin! hahaha!

 Second judge from the industry. 

Proudly present our gold medal! Thanks for the opportunity given! 

A more sincere side of me.

I think this blog reflect me better than any other social page that i have. 

Hmmmm. I'll be actively writing semula lepas totally finishing with my master. 

ViVA on this upcoming thursday! Wish me luck! :)

What i really need right now

This is what i really need right now. 

A vacation away from all this ridiculous people.

I need sand and beaches.

I need to embrace the nature.

I need the warmth of an island.

I need to run away.

I need a holiday..

Hati, jangan rapuh

Suatu masa, aku jadi takut.
Takut kerana aku tahu betap rapuhnya satu isi yg dinama hati.

Rapuh, serapuh daun kering.
Sekali diremas, hancur.
Itu salah satu sebab kenapa aku memilih untuk masih sendiri

Kerana hati aku, antara 'daun' yg terpaling rapuh.
Yang kalau dikutik sedikit pun, berderai.

Hai lah hati, kuatlah sekarang.
Kuatlah sendiri.
Kau ada Tuhan, kau ada rasul, kau ada agama, kau ada mak ayah, kau ada adik beradik, kau ada keluarga yang menyayangi dan menjaga.

Jangan kau cari lagi apa yang belum ditakdirkan untuk kamu.
Cukuplah sekadar cukup.
Cukuplah berasa cukup
Jangan meminta
Jangan tamak wahai hati.

Jangan.

A shift, Hijrah

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Kau yang maha berkuasa.

Yang mengetahui segala isi langit dan bumi.

Ya ALLAH, permudahkan niat ku untuk menjadi muslilah yang lebih baik.

Ya ALLAH, tetap kan hati aku untuk terus istiqomah dengan perubahan ini.

Jauhkan aku dari sebarang rasa putus asa untuk terus mencari redha-Mu.

Lindungi aku dari sebarang fitnah manusia yang menyakitkan.

Tetapkan hati ku dijalan yang Engkau redhai.

Bantu aku dalam terus tetap di laluan yg telah aku pilih.

Jauhkan aku dari perasaan berbolak balik.

Tetapkan aku, di jalan MU. 

Random

I don't know why but my blog seems to be somehow problematic.

Maybe merajuk sebab dah lama tak dibukak.

What to do, I didn't have enough time and Internet pun tenggelam timbul..

So jangan la merajuk la blog ku sayang eh eh eh? :)