I've now found the strength.

I've been surprised with something big last two days.
Something big, doesn't mean something good.
Yes, I'm stunted.
It was 10.30 pm while I received that text. I'm shocked.
Watching my favorite sequels on screen was like watching the tv show I hate the most.
I can't feel my leg touching the ground. I feel nothing. Completely zero feeling.
And the first thing coming outtaf my mouth was.

"Why was this happening to me? Ya ALLAH, how many test more that you going to put me through?"

I know, I should't react like that, but that was the first thing that cross my mind.
I reply the text, my hand shaking vigorously, my heard stumping hard, and my mind went blur.
I didn't ask for further explanation. I don't want to.
I just made everything clear, because what she's sending me was somehow blur.
I was saying I won't run into her and she won't hear anything about me anymore. Never.
I call my friend, I text all of them and unexpectedly, I receive thousands of reply.
Then I realized, you're not even worth it for me to fight for.

My lovely cousin was there, comforting me.
Yes I do broke into tears,
But let's take the tears as a signal of me regretting my self knowing you.
I'm forced to face 'lost' a few times before and yo're the one who I turned to.
But now I realized that you're no different than the others!
And the most important thing was I realized there's many others who loved me and treat me well.
They deserve me and I want to be with them for whatever it takes.
After all those calls and text, before I dozed off.
I kept reminiscing, and I kept thinking on how I'm gonna let mummy know about this.

Well, it's not that hard. As I tell mummy, she went all relieved and saying that she likes it that I'm no longer your friend.
Or should I say you're no longer mine.
There's a wide gap between us and not only that, our thinking were so widely different too.
And yes, mummy thanked me for not being friend with you anymore.
I'm not saying that my mummy teach me to make enemy.
Hey! You're the one who set off everything, so I guess KAU YANG SUKA BERMUSUHLAH KAN?
Well, mummy never restrict me to befriend with whoever I want to.
But there's sometimes she said she doesn't like me befriend with certain people.
Well you can say, mummy know us best.
But I didn't hear her advice. But well, mummy does happy knowing that I'm no longer your friend. :)
Well, there are 9.9737 billion people on earth, you can't expect me to befriend with everyone right?

And hey! The fact that there is 9.9737 billion people on earth.
One you wouldn't hurt me.
Haha.
And now, I'm glad that we're already walking on our own path.
Which diverts quite huge I can say. :)