inside out? haha. yerp...thats totally describing right now. at this second! huhu.. seriously. either from the inside or outside of my body. i dunno what happen! i dunno what is happening right now. *kaabuur kaaaburrrr*..huhuu... nuthing happen to be right for me now. all the things happen around me now..sooo mak me wanna PukE..!!!! ergghhhhh..
everything not really well done.! just look at how messed my room was! that totally describe how am i was right now. O.o huhuhu.. if mummy was here kompem she will beleter at me all day n all night...huhu.. *i really dunno how to manage mysef now*. really feel like a LOSER!
see how rajin ur other fren are. and u? lazying depan lappy..until ur lappy pun muak suda tgok muka u! keep hang ang not responding. but u still dun get it right! yeahh..it was soo like you.! like to troubling others. and like to make others susah hati! yeahh...that were exectly u! keep saying wanna change. wanna be a better person. Bile? u kept renewing ur AZAM TAHUN BARU each year u noe? what do u think mummy will feel if she know ur situation now?
Inside. outside. am a really diff person. person come ans say how messy i look like. but inside, i mysef had getting tired of all this messiness! *betul ka my english?* huhuhu..people see me as a strong perrson at the outside. without knowing how weak i am.. i dun want others to worry about me. so i pretend to be strong. realizing that it will pain inside. but still this is me. like to sacrifice for others.. like to see other happy rather then mysef. u guys tat really know me. will know dis..
am kinda stupid. am kinda clumsy. if its come to love. then i like to play around talking about it and make joke out of it. but when i really comes to love someone. then i will put all my heart for him. people always said to me...dunt get too carried away with ur love...dun hanging over his wing and fly too high..because when he find a new wings..then he will throw u and it was very hurt to fall from such a high place. ;( i've feel it.
was this what they said about the transition.?
we dun realize the transition from baby to child..
because we were to small to understand it..
we dun realize the transition from child to teenage.
because we were too naive and playful to realized it..
we dun realize the transition from teenage to late-teenage..
since we were too busy with homeworks and asaimen.
but then the transition from late-teenage to early adult.
it happen when we were so big dy to understand.
to realise....that it cost us quiet sumthing.
that we can never be happy. jumping running all day like before.
realized that our life had become more serious..
more straight..
i wish i cud go back..
to the days when we were sooo happy.
playing all day without have to know..
all this adult tense,,
i wish i cud back..
to those days when teacher scolding us for not doin homework..
rather than now...when the lecturers silently give us low mark..
=.=
those day..
when we see how the adult didnt being scold by mummy n daddy..
we wish that we grow faster...
those day when we see the adult carying the smal bag..
no textbook..no all the heavy things stuffed inside,,
how we wish that everyday is out birthday..
so that we can be adult faster.
n know..regretting all the things will not give u back the past
i think back. n i think.
the one and only way left
is just to carry on life
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